Looks like I’m probably going to go to the trauma program at Sheppard Pratt in Baltimore. We’re still looking for unlocked programs that take Medicare, but I really don’t think they exist. Sheppard Pratt is locked, but it’s less restrictive than River Oaks, the other place I was looking at.
However, they have about a six-week waiting list. That part really sucks–I don’t know how I’m going to hang on for that long. I’m so anxious and depressed, and I really feel like everything is utterly hopeless.
I really, REALLY want to binge and purge right now. I’m do on edge. I can’t focus on anything–not books or movies or even my knitting. I need some sort of release, and healthy coping skills don’t work for me. But if I buy b/p food, I’ll be early out of money for the month.
God, I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to survive myself right now.