I’m feeling way too needy right now.
This is a feeling that comes up every time I feel too overwhelmed to deal with it on my own. If I need/want anything from other people, I feel like I need too much, like I am too much.
NT offered twice a week therapy as a regular thing. I desperately wanted it, so of course I said no. So I’ve been struggling to get through the week, counting the days until my next therapy session.
I hate that I can’t let myself need anyone. It’s such black and white thinking. I know logically that I should allow myself to accept the support other people offer. I know it’s the therapist’s job to set boundaries, and she wouldn’t offer to see me twice a week if it was too much for her.
But I still can’t let myself accept the help. I just sit at home, desperately lonely and wishing my next therapy session was sooner.