I feel like shit and I want to cut. If I wasn’t afraid I’d get in trouble if our team found out, I’d already have done it.
None of those BS healthy coping skills do anything at all. Believe me, I’ve tried them all already. The only one that kinda helps is punching the wall because it hurts my hand but I probably shouldn’t mess up the wall. Cutting works better anyways.
I just wanna stop feeling and I don’t get why I’m not supposed to do it. It’s not like it hurts anybody else. I know it’s just a temporary fix and I’m okay with that. I’d rather do something instead of just moping around whining about how shitty we feel which is all we’ve been doing so far. Why’s it so bad for me to do the one thing I can that’ll make me feel better?