I’m not sleeping. Again. Which fucking sucks.
Seriously, last night I had a vivid hallucination that there was a rabbit in my room, and one of the cats was trying to catch it. I have an anaphylactic rabbit allergy, so I started freaking out about said rabbit. It wasn’t until I got out of bed to chase it out of my bedroom that I realized there was no rabbit.
Damn, I used to be a lot better at sleep deprivation. Used to be I wouldn’t hallucinate until I’d gone 4 days with absolutely no sleep. I’ve been sleeping a bit the last few days, so it’s not even total sleep deprivation. But my brain is totally nonfunctional, and I’m hallucinating bunnies.
I have to find out if Medicare will cover another sleep study. The sleep issues have been getting progressively wonkier for a while now. We’d adjust the meds and I’d do okay for a while, but it just never quite gets back to a good equilibrium. My psychiatrist is out of ideas, so hopefully I can get a repeat sleep study done, as I’m pretty sure it’s a circadian rhythm issue. Not really a psychiatrist’s area of expertise.
Plus, Hormonal Hell Week starts in a few days, and that on top of sleep deprivation is just a recipe for unpleasantness. This shit needs to get figured out. I’m so tired of dealing with doctors–I just want something to WORK already.